CAMINO JOURNAL by Maryanna Gabriel
Dear Diary…
“If I really am doing the Camino, I need to spend the next section of the year focusing on walking. xo ”
February 27, 2017
“I keep waiting for a sign but it hasn’t been like that at all. More a snowball effect, a gathering of energy to the point where momentum builds up and one is on the train joining the troops, when one doesn’t remember consciously enlisting.” xo
March 2, 2017
I feel a quiet happiness this morning. Truly. I was just running through my head in the last few days that I was peaceful, content, sometimes joyful, but not happy. Just memories of it. I would say this morning this is definitely not true. It is a quiet kind of happiness that is quite lovely… I started to feel better about things, not so worried about the Camino, now that I have made arrangements for the first week…. xo
“If I just keep focusing on
what needs to happen next, rather than feeling overwhelmed, it will help me move forward. ”
“Roaring along here. Already I have made a quick recovery from spilling half a can of paint on the kitchen floor, partially enveloping a Persian rug...
I have to get walking. ”
April 15, 2017
I take my dream as a warning about the Camino as I try to work out if what I am taking is adequate. I have already lost a passport when travelling, and trust me, I do not wish to repeat the experience. Somehow I feel I have linked the future which is the Camino, with the past, and my unconscious is trying to tell me something. xo
May 8, 2017
The trek is very expensive. Yesterday I made more headway with travel arrangements. I need to sit down and work things out thoughtfully. My immediate instinct when my eyes fly open in the morning is to walk. xo
“It is with some effort I sit and write as I am wanting very much to bolt hither and thither like a frightened rabbit. Oh the burden of being mortal.”
June 11, 2017
I told some friends what I was doing and they wanted to hear all about the Camino. Their support and excitement was wonderful. I held onto that feeling all day. The fact is, I might not be able to make it. I keep seeing the Camino, the flashes of sunlight, the places, the stone work. Maybe this means the knee is a temporary glitch. xo
